I blog about pretty much any fantasy stuff (including, but not limited to, dr who, game of thrones, harry potter, & world of warcraft); sherlock and similar dramas; mental health; funny stuff; diabetes (i am type 1 diabetic); and basically anything that i find interesting/escapist.
(Trigger warning: some content may be upsetting for those with issues like depression/eating disorders/self harm/suicidal feelings.)
Having a pretty rough night tonight.
Debating whether or not this is all worth it.
If you had have asked me 4 years ago what the worst thing I could possibly imagine happening to me is, I would have told you “type 1 diabetes”
I would have told you that I would rather die than have to go through that.
And now here I am 2 1/2 years after diagnosis wondering how the hell I am going to live the rest of my life like this.
People keep telling me that ‘I control my disease, it doesn’t control me’.
But when I’m constantly sick and with a blood sugar of 20+ mmol/L and I just can’t bring it down, I feel like it controls every action every single day and I just want it gone.
If I believed in an after life, if I believed that death would make it better, or enclose any feeling if relief I would have done it by now. But this is all I have. If I end it now I still would have died with diabetes and I still would have made nothing of myself.
If I die now this is all I ever will be. But how can I even become anything more with diabetes holding me back very single time.
Sorry about the pessimism tonight but I really just need to put this out there somewhere. It’s doing me no good just swirling around in my head
Hope you’re feeling better soon killerbeetes. xx
thins sort of thing has been on my mind the last few days, and I hate having to fight it :’(
before you date a girl with a mental illness, remember: saying, “you’re beautiful” won’t balance the chemicals in her brain.
and don’t fucking say, “i’ll be here for you, no matter what,” if you don’t mean it.
don’t think you’re fixing her by saying, “i love you.” because you’re not
This needs more notes.
All of it, but mostly the bolded
You can help or hinder, but you cannot erase.
and one on each shoulder, and one on my chest, and four shallow ones on my other leg.
today was quite stressful (in a stupid, ‘there’s nothing to stress about but I’m going to anyway’ sort of way) and I’ve also got a hospital app (re diabetes) so maybe I’m subconsciously worrying about that too. Bleh.
How old are you and how old are your little ones?
Randomly stalked the ‘mumblr’ tag and thought I’d join in. :)
I’m 20 and my little man is 18 months!
I’ll be 27 next month. Little one is 18 months and I’m 18wks preggo.
I’m 26 and I have (almost) 14 month old twin boys.
Im 23 and my lil one is just over 2!
Im 28 and my little girl is 2 & 1/2 and my little boy is almost 5 months!
I’m 27 and I have a 4-year-old and 2-year-old twins :)